Have to or Want to?

Feeling guilty or inadequate is a common feeling. When guilt creeps into my being, life is sucked away. Often guilt comes when I have an expectation of myself (usually self-imposed or imposed), and I don’t live up to the expectation.

All these “have to’s” and “shoulds” dig me into a hole of guilt and inadequacy.

Here is a changed way of thinking:
I can’t have everything. I don’t need everything.

What do I really want in life? I want to love my family. I want to care for my community. I want to have a holy Spiritual awareness in my life.

This is a shift in my spirit. When I am not able to do “everything”, I think about what I desire in life. I want to follow Jesus. I want to love others. I want to love my family. I want to love my husband. So when I don’t get everything done, I can’t feel overwhelmed by my own inadequacy, but I can focus on what I know I long for.

This perspective does require sacrifice. I often need to focus on what I want in the big picture. For example, because I want to have a healthy body, I sometimes have to wake up early in the morning to do some exercise. I don’t usually feel like waking up early, but the bigger picture trumps the short term desire to sleep longer. I may feel short on time, rushed, busy, but I WANT to know that life is bigger than the physical, so I stop for a moment and look at the frost on the trees on a sunny January day (like today).

Me, “the Christian”?

I have been involved in deep interpersonal conflict. I am trying to discover what I can change, how I want behave and interact with others. I have found a lot of grace. It was really hard knowing that me, the Christian, was the one who was causing stress, tension, and a whole strew of other negative effects.

Me, “the Christian”? I am supposed to be the “light in the darkness” and it wasn’t that way at all. Relationships are difficult and not terribly predictable.

The world has been inundated with strife and anger, and to think that I would be protected from being in the world for some reason, was not an idea that is grounded in the reality. So, I keep trying to right the wrongs that I have been a part of, and commit to finding ways to love.

It was good for me to go through a difficult time. I am so thankful for the Cross. Forgiveness is beautiful.

Co-creators

“For: The Institute of Contemporary and Emerging Worship Studies, St. Stephen’s University, Essentials Blue Online Worship Theology Course with Dan Wilt.”

What is our purpose on earth? We often simply say it is to glorify God. To reflect his image. To be in relationship with God, to be loved and to love back.

However, since the time of the first human pride, where we severed the perfection, we strove for personal gain, the first sin, and ever since that time, the relationship broke down.

God never gave up on us, he kept working out the rescue plan to re-create the garden, where there would be no more sin, no more pain. Jesus came. He died and rose again, bringing the start of the New Creation.

Now we have a dual purpose to join God in 1. co-creating and 2. to reflect his love, his beauty, his voice on earth. We have joined God in re-building creation in putting things to right. This is worship.

week 4 essentials blue

“For: The Institute of Contemporary and Emerging Worship Studies, St. Stephen’s University, Essentials Blue Online Worship Theology Course with Dan Wilt.”

God is LOVE.

1. In the beginning God created heaven and earth. In the beginning God created humans to be in the depths of relationship with him, to love and be loved and in turn to love one another.

2. Near the beginning humans began to wonder if they could aspire to more than human-ness, but this was selfishness and pride, not motivated by love. Death entered the world because of human pride; because humans wanted to be like God. When death entered the world, all the effects of death came; sickness, injustice, disease, relational breakdown, pain.

There was severing between God and humans, because of the consequences of human pride. God was saddened and yet his LOVE remained. God began to make ways to restore his relationship with his people again. The Old Testaments are story after story of attempts at relationship restoration, covenants of relationship, and of promises for new covenant.

3. And so Jesus came. He came as one who could overcome death, because he was God. He could make it all right. Jesus made a new relationship between God and humans, by willingly giving up his own life to death.

Jesus started the process of bringing back LIFE to all of creation and bringing LIFE to every human being.

4. Those who believe the story of Jesus Christ, will have restoration of relationship with God. Love will override all else.

Relationship with God hasn’t fully been restored yet, but it has been started. The story is not yet over. The new creation began at Jesus’ death and resurrection; but it could not yet fully implemented. This time of new creation is the Kingdom of God, it is God’s will being done on earth as it is in heaven.

week 3 essentials blue

“For: The Institute of Contemporary and Emerging Worship Studies, St. Stephen’s University, Essentials Blue Online Worship Theology Course with Dan Wilt.”

To start a discussion about being Fully Human, one must begin with some of ideas from Jean Vanier and the l’Arche community.

The spirit of community can be found in the discovery that beauty exists in every person… Community forms when we discover that we are interdependent and that every person has gifts…Humans are not set on earth as a pyramid, where the bottom is crushed and the top is alone, but each being is an essential part of the whole…We must seek to be fully ourselves; no fear, no hierarchy; to be fully loving one another…Growth in love happens with gift of self… Giving of ourselves brings us back to community and of imitating the way Christ. [1]

There is a connection with these themes of creativity, community, justice and spirituality to a place where many have become more fully human, including myself. This place is Flatlanders Inn. [2] A place where creative expression of ideas find their way into the physical realm and are shared because of a culture of acceptance, safety and mutual support which all originate from the Spirit of God. This is relationship, creativity, spirituality and justice. There is art, music, relationships, arguments, frustrations and crazy antics in this place; all creative expressions of being human. Flatlanders Inn is a place where we seek “right related-ness” (righteousness) to each other and with Jesus Christ. A place where there are no pyramids, where each person is an essential part of the whole, fully human, loved and accepted no matter their worldly label.[3]

To be fully human is to move beyond the labels of our society. There are no rules defining who can and who can’t be creative. We are each a reflection of the image of God our Creator, making us essentially creative.[4]

To be fully human is to be interdependent, where we each have something to give and we each need one another; true community. [5]

To be fully human is to recognize the injustice in the world and to work to change it, to flatten the pyramids and create circles of life.

To be fully human is to know that the Spirit is powerful and true. Spirituality gives us the energy and life to be alive in the physical world. Spirituality allows Christ to inspire and guide us and encouraging our participation in the on-going story of creation actively bringing heaven on earth through our journey of becoming more fully human.

1. Jean Vanier, Growth and Community (Paulist Press, 1989).
2. www.winnipegcentrevineyard.com
3. Andrew Wood, It’s a Flat World After All (Draft Thesis project for the Masters of Ministry, St. Stephen’s University, 2009).
4. Dan Wilt, Essential Worship Theology: The Nature of Human Beings, e*b Video.
5. Scott Peck, The Different Drum (New York: Simon and Schuster, 1987)

www.bekwood.wordpress.com

week 2 essentials blue

“For: The Institute of Contemporary and Emerging Worship Studies, St. Stephen’s University, Essentials Blue Online Worship Theology Course with Dan Wilt.”

For the past year, as I have been reading Simply Christian, the Lord’s Prayer has become an integral part of my life and understanding of the world.

“Your kingdom come. Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.” Matthew 6:10

Part II of Simply Christian shows how God, through Jesus Christ, has rescued and is rescuing humanity and indeed all of creation. The Kingdom of God has come here on earth. The presence of heaven is not allocated to some place in space for our souls to come to rest after death.

The Kingdom of God is available to us in the here and now, on earth as it in heaven. In glimpses we see the world put to rights, we have connection with God through the presence of the Holy Spirit. God’s presence is not separated to a place in the temple, accessed only by a select few, but his Spirit is present within us.

Humanity is not doomed. Even though Greenland is melting, and innocent people are being destroyed, there will be a re-creation. Right now, the presence of God, the Kingdom of God is making its way in the world now. In fact, we, those who believe in God the King, Creator, Spirit and Saviour, are workers in the renewal of the earth to make the way for the Kingdom of God to be fully established, a new heaven and a new earth.

Here is the challenge for me right now; my dad died a few months ago. He was only sixty. I cannot help but to think daily of heaven. Often, I can’t imagine anything good, anything heavenly, on earth. My dad’s life is over, my mom feels as if her life has also ended. Grief is deep.

However, I hold on to the belief that God has a Rescue Plan and it has begun. This is also what I believe to be a profound idea for the next decades of life on earth. We are not sentenced to death but we are brought into this Life. God is rescuing humanity now. The earth is not doomed. Death does not reign. The King reigns and his love overtakes death. Christianity is the belief that the LIVING GOD accomplished His promise – to find, to save and give new life to his creation and his children- in Jesus (Wright, p. 92).

Wright, N.T. Simply Christian. New York: Harper Collins. 2006.

Creativity in Humanity

“For: The Institute of Contemporary and Emerging Worship Studies, St. Stephen’s University, Essentials Blue Online Worship Theology Course with Dan Wilt.”

Exploration
of our many expressions
Translations
of our thoughts and observations
Reflection
Of our God Almighty.
Origination
From Love.

2 Topics to do with Prayer

Last week, week 2 of the Essentials blue course, we were challenged to think about the Trinity.

There was discussion saying that to understand the trinity, we have to see the three parts of God as “community”. In biology, we are taught that the essence of community is interdependence. There was a word to describe this in theology, perichoresis.

I believe fully in the trinity. The way it seems to make sense to me is that there are three parts of who God is. God the Father, creator of all things. God the Son, Jesus, Messiah, Redeemer. God the Spirit, counsellor, guide. All these persons are GOD. God is one, completely consistent with God’s self. Loving, Just, Powerful etc.

All of who God is, has been made available to us now in the present day because of the death of Jesus on the cross and the resurrection, where now we are on the path of participating in making all things new, New Creation.

To make the sign of the cross, or at least to think about the cross, as we pray is to declare that the Kingdom of God is here.

Nagging Question: My kids, when they really want to eat, and don’t want to stop to say a heartfelt in the moment prayer, or say one of our many family memory prayers, will say “Dear Jesus, Thanks for the Food. Amen.” I feel like there isn’t really any theology for the thanksgiving of food and a prayer to Jesus.

Some might say, does it matter who you address your prayer to, if you mean it to go to God, then it goes to God and it doesn’t matter if we say” Jesus”, “Spirit”, “Father” or the all-encompassing “Lord God”.

But somehow, it doesn’t jive with me right now. Why shouldn’t we address our prayer to the all encompassing Lord God, or to the part of God to whom we would associate with the prayer. For example, Holy Spirit show me the way. Creator thank you for creation and all that it is in it. Christ have mercy.

In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, Amen.

RESCUED by LOVE

“For: The Institute of Contemporary and Emerging Worship Studies, St. Stephen’s University, Essentials Blue Online Worship Theology Course with Dan Wilt.”

Reflections on Wright

Christianity isn’t just a moral teaching with Jesus as a moral example.
Christianity isn’t just a way to go to heaven after death.

Christianity is knowing that we are lost. We need to be found. We need NEW LIFE, now and forevermore.

Personal Reflection

There was a time in my life when I found myself in a place completely broken. I was pregnant. Not married. LOST and AFRAID. It was through the Love of my dear Father, who sent his Son to earth to live and sacrifice, that I was filled with forgiveness, love and grace. God found me. And filled me with LIFE.

This scenario has repeated itself over and over. Jesus life and death made the cosmos turn a corner. All of humanity would be lost and broken without the sacrifice that forgives all things. It was a Rescue Plan to bring life!

Heaven on earth doesn’t mean eternal happiness. Heaven on earth does mean that there is forgiveness through Jesus and hope for NEW LIFE with the Holy Spirit.

The 4 Callings

“For: The Institute of Contemporary and Emerging Worship Studies, St. Stephen’s University, Essentials Blue Online Worship Theology Course with Dan Wilt.”

I am drawn to God. Called by his voice, the echo of God in all of my being and in all of creation, to pursue setting things right in the world, to seek God and be filled with God’s spirit, to love one another and to experience beauty.

4callspainting

« Older entries

Follow

Get every new post delivered to your Inbox.